at the center of chaos is a sort of eye. like in a storm. a sort of calmness — a gravity. it is the point of origin: source. that which the big bang pours out of also lives at the core of us — a sort of portal.
how do i know when source has something to say? how did i know to come to my ipad to begin typing these words? well it sort of shows up in my head in a way that strokes my brain like a small orgasm. a soft purr of pleasure that is so nearly indiscernible from everything else that without practice i did not know to follow it. an idea or understanding bubbles up and tickles my sense. since i’ve trained myself to tune to these sensations, i notice when it’s an entity knocking at my door wishing to materialize. sometimes it takes me a second still, i might be like “wait that thot, image, or word(s) just repeated like 3 times in my head ‘out of nowhere’ lemme take that down.” i might reach for something to type, draw, or record with…whatever i have on hand that feels most direct.
trust in this habit of faithfully dropping seeds and breadcrumbs for myself has grown a lush ecosystem around me. a multidimensional environment of ideas, symbols, writings, projects, installations, art pieces, conversations, and research that not only keeps my whole practice and life juicily abundant, it is also the actual key to accessing my web-like quantum creative practice. {a portal that grows wider and stronger with each touch.} i am often so deep in my process that i can only see one step in either direction. i am consistently collaborating with many meez across spacetime because it is the only possible way for me to manage the vast fluidity and stay grounded (bodied) in the present. in the past when i tried to hold both roles of manager and creatrix in the present — my flow stopped — order gave way to chaos. but chaos is always present, and so i must trust larger forces to “manage” the larger arcs so that i may be present to the process. For me, ‘the process’ really is an immersive mode.
i’ve been telling people lately that my primary medium is ideas and the physical medium or mode-of-materialization is whatever helps me further that exploration. i draw webs of ideas thru matter and form as a way to see the emergent pattern. or rather a way to sense it…with any of the senses. i see clearer when i am honest about the many existing co-truths. we are chaos in divine* pattern. not confining myself to limiting notions of category and mode keeps me closest to my self (selves), in all our multitudes.
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‘a’ working definition of *divine* :: that which is deeply and inexplicably connected; a cosmic largeness of interrelated pattern; a blueprint or pattern of source